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SHAME and LOGIC fight for control of a body.
SHAME: I shouldn’t have done that. I shouldn’t have done that.
LOGIC: That wasn’t a bad thing that you did.
SHAME: It was. It was a bad. I am a bad. I am bad.
LOGIC: No.
SHAME: But.
LOGIC: No, I said.-
SHAME: And I feel-
LOGIC: But YOU aren’t. And it wasn’t. It isn’t. And you still aren’t.
SHAME: No?
LOGIC: No.
SHAME: But what about the other-
LOGIC: No, we’re not talking about that right now. That was a totally different thing.
SHAME: It is relevant.
LOGIC: It is entirely not relevant.
SHAME: SHUT UP! You’re not relevant!!
LOGIC: — Shame, are you lashing out at me because you know I’m right?
SHAME: No…
LOGIC: Be honest.
SHAME: No.
LOGIC: —
SHAME: Maybe.
LOGIC: —
SHAME: But-
LOGIC: Ah-ah!
SHAME: You just don’t understand me.
LOGIC: I do. That’s the problem.
SHAME: I feel-
LOGIC: Yes. That is correct. You feel. But you don’t have to because-
SHAME: I don't?
LOGIC: Why do you feel?
SHAME: Well, because history.
LOGIC: No.
SHAME: Because- oh. Oh…
LOGIC: You’re almost there.
SHAME: Because-
LOGIC: Yes.
SHAME: Because judgment and sadness and judgment again. Because dishonesty and distrust, and self-sabotage. Because disappointment and distance, and unfulfilled potential. Because loss and being forgotten and also blamed. Because- Oh. And because fear.
LOGIC: Yes.
SHAME: —
LOGIC: So. Why don’t you take a break for a little while, Shame?
SHAME: Okay.
LOGIC: Because also there is safety and communication and help. And don’t forget about softness and compassion and sympathy and tenderness and been-there-done-that.
SHAME: —
LOGIC: There is love, too. And love is a whole big thing, you know.
SHAME: Love scares me.
LOGIC: She is more powerful than you.
SHAME: I feel you’re right.
LOGIC: I think so.
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